39 years and 365 days (thank goodness for leap year!)

Today is the last day that I can say I’m in my 30’s. Tomorrow all that changes! Yes, tomorrow I celebrate 40 years on this earth, and what does this pivotal birthday mean? Everyone who is older says, “It’s just another day” or “it’s just a number”. Everyone who is younger says, “wow” you don’t look that old”. Or at least that’s what they MUST be thinking………..Anyway, I’m ok with it.

When I went from 19 to 20, I was just disappointed because I still wasn’t old enough to drink (and it really didn’t matter since I grew up next to Canada and their drinking age was 19).

29 to 30 was tough. Being in my 20’s meant I was still young and it didn’t matter if I had a career, it didn’t matter if I wasn’t married or if I had kids because “I was still young and had my whole life ahead of me to make those things happen". I wore all black on this day 10 years ago in mourning of the death of my 20's .

Now going from 39 to 40 I had better have my ducks in a row. I am now at an age that it’s “risky” for me to have kids. If I wasn’t married, I would definitely be an “old maid” and as for a career – well being a woman I get some grace for that one. But it also means that I am almost middle aged, my youth is fading, I doubt that I will be carded anytime soon without plastic surgery or Botox first.

So what do I see for myself as the next 10 years slip by? Well when I’m 49 years and 364 days I expect that I will still live in this house (though I’m sure each room will have been remodeled or at least a fresh coat of paint). I know that I will still be in love with my husband and happily married (God willing that neither one of us gets a deadly illness or an untimely death)). I expect that I will become a grandma (hopefully when I’m closer to 50 then 40). Of the 3 dogs that I have I may only have one but will most likely have one or two Dachshunds (a boy named Diesel and a girl named Heidi). My husband and I will have traveled to many places and we will still be active. I may even have a 2^nd or 3^rd degree black belt in Tae kwon do. I know that my relationship with God will be stronger (because there is a lot of room for growth there). I hope to have recorded a CD that I can give to friends and family. Other than that, I really don’t know what else God will have planned for me but I am looking forward to the next ten years